Last Saturday, on 1/12/18, we found out the gender of our baby.
It was a normal monthly check-up and I was told by others that I'll only find out the gender in week 20. So I went in without hoping to see the gender. Just hoping to see baby healthy.
Then Dr Karen did a scan and we were shown the different parts of baby. Then she said, let's see if baby is a boy or a girl. And.....it was....not what we predicted. But we are happy nevertheless.
Saw the rest of the baby eg head, heartbeat, hand, legs, thighs, tummy. Next visit we will see baby in the detailed scan I think. Went to KKIA to check last Thursday and everything seems fine. Will be going for my first GD test on the 20th of Dec. Not looking forward to it but if it has to be done, it has to be done. So.....we'll be OK.
Can't believe we are entering week 16 soon. When I was in week 6, even getting through the first trimester seems so difficult. Thank God for His grace and strength and my husband & family's tender loving care, we are now in week 16 (eating so much better I have to control myself.) Slowly but surely we are getting there.
Till the next check-up updates.
Mrs Chong/Mummy Chong
Friday, December 7, 2018
Sunday, November 18, 2018
Second trimester: Week 13 Day 1
Finally entered second trimester.
Feeling so much better and so much more human the last week although I was really exhausted.
Will only see doctor in week 14-15.
So now just trusting baby and myself and of course God in growing our baby well in my tummy.
Also for the first time in a longgggg longgggg time, I went out with my family and had breakfast. After that Daniel and I went Gurney (have not been to a mall since end of Sept). Managed to eat my lunch in Sushi King also which is another win cause I’ve not eat out for a long long time too.
Just praying to get better each day and grow baby healthily.
Second trimester is honeymoon phase right? Let me have that! 😬 I think I deserve a honeynoon phase now.
Signing off,
Mrs Chong, Mummy Chong
Feeling so much better and so much more human the last week although I was really exhausted.
Will only see doctor in week 14-15.
So now just trusting baby and myself and of course God in growing our baby well in my tummy.
Also for the first time in a longgggg longgggg time, I went out with my family and had breakfast. After that Daniel and I went Gurney (have not been to a mall since end of Sept). Managed to eat my lunch in Sushi King also which is another win cause I’ve not eat out for a long long time too.
Just praying to get better each day and grow baby healthily.
Second trimester is honeymoon phase right? Let me have that! 😬 I think I deserve a honeynoon phase now.
Signing off,
Mrs Chong, Mummy Chong
Saturday, November 10, 2018
Week 11 day 6
We met our baby last doctor’s visit.
I met our baby again when I went to KKIA to register both of us.
It suddenly feels different.
I’m not a very independent person to begin with. I’m afraid of needles and pain and going through D&C was the biggest deal for me.
Then when I was there for the KKIA registration, suddenly it felt like it’s me and my baby. Yes Daniel is the best husband ever (I cannot go through first trimester or even the whole pregnancy without him) but there are so many times and things which only baby and I will share. Papa can only be a supporter.
Finally seeing our baby relieves me. The previous time, we were greeted with a dot which did not grow. This time we can see our baby, moving, with a heartbeat. I did not cry but we were both relieved. Daniel was just grinning like a Chesire cat la. Dr Karen is super reassuring and just said she’ll meet us again in a month’s time.
Then we went to KKIA but can only register on Thursday so I had to go back again the following Thursday. Took this from my Dayre about my experience in KKIA.
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The nurses are really nice and they really did a thorough check on me. The doctor is new but super gentle and soft spoken. Also she’s pretty and I like to look at pretty girls so WIN la. When she was scanning my baby, I couldn’t see cause the clinic was small and the screen wasn’t facing me (not like private hosp). Then she looked so long and was showing puzzling look. Gave me a shock cause I thought she couldn’t find my baby!
I met our baby again when I went to KKIA to register both of us.
It suddenly feels different.
I’m not a very independent person to begin with. I’m afraid of needles and pain and going through D&C was the biggest deal for me.
Then when I was there for the KKIA registration, suddenly it felt like it’s me and my baby. Yes Daniel is the best husband ever (I cannot go through first trimester or even the whole pregnancy without him) but there are so many times and things which only baby and I will share. Papa can only be a supporter.
Finally seeing our baby relieves me. The previous time, we were greeted with a dot which did not grow. This time we can see our baby, moving, with a heartbeat. I did not cry but we were both relieved. Daniel was just grinning like a Chesire cat la. Dr Karen is super reassuring and just said she’ll meet us again in a month’s time.
Then we went to KKIA but can only register on Thursday so I had to go back again the following Thursday. Took this from my Dayre about my experience in KKIA.
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The nurses are really nice and they really did a thorough check on me. The doctor is new but super gentle and soft spoken. Also she’s pretty and I like to look at pretty girls so WIN la. When she was scanning my baby, I couldn’t see cause the clinic was small and the screen wasn’t facing me (not like private hosp). Then she looked so long and was showing puzzling look. Gave me a shock cause I thought she couldn’t find my baby!
She was smiling at first then frowned. Scared me. End up she was just thinking if she should print out (i think they can only print out some of the scans cause expensive). i told her was you scared me for a little. Then she was a bit paiseh and moved the scan so that I can see the screen and see my baby. Then she smiled again when my baby was jumping and moving around. She said, there, moving around. Can you see the heartbeat? (Honestly i couldn’t cause I was not in a good position to view it).
Anyway, I should learn to relax and trust my body and my baby that they are working hard to grow well.
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I’m feeling much better compared to the earlier weeks but evenings are still tough so I still go to bed at 8pm to sleep off those feelings.
Now that we are finishing first trimester soon, we have to start sourcing for baby sitters etc. CL is done cause my sister’s ex CL is coming back for us! We loved her and she took good care of every one of us so we are glad to have her back.
Lots more planning but let me get through first trimester first okay? To babyN, we’ll get through this together. Thank you for growing well in me. Let’s conquer all the needles and pray for more comfort in the coming months!
Signing off,
Mrs Chong, Mama Chong
Wednesday, October 31, 2018
BFP
October 3rd 2018
Tested positive and have been vomiting for at least 4 days. I tell myself it'll be OK but still can't help feeling miserable and sorry for myself. How do people go on and have more kids?
October 6th 2018
Pfft...and I thought the last round was bad. This first trimester proves the previous one to be child's play la. Now I eat also wanna vomit, no eat even worse. One day feels like a week.
Women especially mothers are strong, very strong. One week in and I want to wave white flag to surrender le.
TTC also difficult, got it d, miscarried, now round 2, vomiting all day long. One baby, many stories. May I survive all this and may this be my testimony of God's goodness.
October 14th 2018
I try to be happy but it's so difficult when you are vomiting all the time. Today I finally vomited the yellow bile that I read so much about. And I'm only in week 8. The light at the end of the tunnel seems so far away.
I feel bad for feeling miserable when I've been waiting for this baby for 2 yrs. Still, I feel miserable. And that nobody can help me end this suffering. How do you all pull through? I'm such a weakling.
October 16th 2018
Stayed home today. Decided to take another day off to rest at home. After today I'm gonna (wo)man up and force myself to work. No more running home half day or feeling sorry for myself. Who is gonna pay the bills if I keep running off from work?
Also yesterday I fell. Damn stupid actually.Was trying to swallow Veloxin but choked on the water so I vomited all of it out. While rushing to the toilet, I slipped on the water I vomited out. I was wearing hotel slipper. So landed on my thigh.
So clumsy. Think baby is alright. Just mummy again. Thank God my colleagues offered to cover my classes so I'm taking one day off but no more excuses the next time. I have to be strong. 3 more weeks to go!
Waiting for the day I can eat without worrying if the same food will come out where it entered.
October 17th 2018
In the midst of all these sufferings, I have a lot to thank for. Colleagues who stepped in to replace my class, sister who cooks even though I don't always eat them all, sister who would text and check if I am ok and most of all, a husband would have that look of concern on his face each time I puke.
He is the dustbin now cause I can only manage a few mouthfuls of food he buys but he will do it again the next day. He told me he is most worried when I vomit cause I throw up everything I eat so what's left. In the first pregnancy, my food aversion was bad but I managed to eat. So he kept complaining about having to eat out and he thought I was just being difficult.
This time around, seeing how bad I'm puking, he just quietly does everything. Occasionally nag me but then all out of concern. I get so upset sometimes I would tell him not to nag so much cause he is the root of my problem now. 😂 If I'm not pregnant with his child, I won't be vomiting right? So he'll be like OKOK my mistake.
3 more weeks to go. I will survive this. what I dislike about morning sickness is that it's not a choice. I don't get to choose to get sick or not. I occasionally take Veloxin when I cannot take it anymore.
October 18th 2018
Eating biscuit all day every day...
Only way to keep me filled and not make me puke. Don't wanna know how's my sugar level though. At least I drink plain water only and not sugary drinks.
OMG I am so happy cause my sister cooked fried rice and I can eat!!!
October 19th 2018
Today body boikot the rice and pork so back to biscuit and cornflakes.
October 20th 2018
Another day when I feel so unwell and I don't have appetite for anything. Still gotta eat lest I vomit bile again.
Sick for 3 weeks plus but feels like 3 months. Indeed time passes by slowly when you don't enjoy it.
October 22nd 2018
Let me drama a bit.
I very long no eat until full d cause I don't like most food and really my stomach macam bottomless pit. Eat biscuit all cannot seem to fill it. So I almost 1 month liao not one day is full eh. Every day sleep time is very sad to go to bed cause I scared will vomit bile again. Haih, macam macam ada..
Hur hur hur recalled how I wish for no ms this time around. Mana tau lagi teruk. Last round not as bad cause I think baby stopped growing at week 6. So those are just mild ms. This time around so full fledge I just hope baby is growing strong and healthy in me. My goal for the next 9 months and the rest of my life is to make sure my baby is healthy happy.
Bochup can study or not, successful or not. Just healthy and happy. This mother here not ambitious one. I no need professor or doctor.
If I try not to vomit I'll feel worse so decided to let it out before I journey home. 1 hr to home sweet home.
October 24th 2018
Had stomachache then diarrhoea and now my upper abdominal is having period like cramp. Called my gynae and she said if it's not accompanied with bleeding it should be fine. scared.
So sleepy.
Is it my body knows tomorrow I on leave so today sleepy earlier?
October 25th 2018
Can't wait for food to taste good again. Now everything cooked smells horrible to me. Can we survive on fruits, biscuits etc? I'm worried of vomiting bile again but cooked food are ergh...
October 26th 2018
Right after lunch I feel extreme exhaustion. I'm extremely sleepy right now. This is new. Just started yesterday. Is it normal?
Week 9 pattern.
October 27th 2018
Seeing the gynae next week. Worried but told myself to leave it to God la. The first time I was preg I never thought I would lose the baby cause my sister and cousin just gave birth and both of them were okay what?!
This time around I'm more worried cause I have bad morning sickness which is a good sign but I am worried it would all be in vain. But there's nothing I can do but to trust my baby and God. The last time morning sickness was mild (like nausea but no vomit).
Taking a day at a time. Today I feel generally ok so I count my blessings.
October 29th 2018
I honestly dread mealtime the most.
Why must we eat? Why can't we just survive on air?
October 31st 2018
New pattern today - leg cramp. Woke up with muscles on both leg hardened. Still able to walk around etc. Please don't gimme cramp when I'm asleep.
I twist and turn every night and last night I accidentally dropped the ruyi oil while doing my acrobatic moves. My husband jolted up and held my hand immediately. Confirm worried his wife roll herself off the bed.
Tested positive and have been vomiting for at least 4 days. I tell myself it'll be OK but still can't help feeling miserable and sorry for myself. How do people go on and have more kids?
October 6th 2018
Pfft...and I thought the last round was bad. This first trimester proves the previous one to be child's play la. Now I eat also wanna vomit, no eat even worse. One day feels like a week.
Women especially mothers are strong, very strong. One week in and I want to wave white flag to surrender le.
TTC also difficult, got it d, miscarried, now round 2, vomiting all day long. One baby, many stories. May I survive all this and may this be my testimony of God's goodness.
October 14th 2018
I try to be happy but it's so difficult when you are vomiting all the time. Today I finally vomited the yellow bile that I read so much about. And I'm only in week 8. The light at the end of the tunnel seems so far away.
I feel bad for feeling miserable when I've been waiting for this baby for 2 yrs. Still, I feel miserable. And that nobody can help me end this suffering. How do you all pull through? I'm such a weakling.
October 16th 2018
Stayed home today. Decided to take another day off to rest at home. After today I'm gonna (wo)man up and force myself to work. No more running home half day or feeling sorry for myself. Who is gonna pay the bills if I keep running off from work?
Also yesterday I fell. Damn stupid actually.Was trying to swallow Veloxin but choked on the water so I vomited all of it out. While rushing to the toilet, I slipped on the water I vomited out. I was wearing hotel slipper. So landed on my thigh.
So clumsy. Think baby is alright. Just mummy again. Thank God my colleagues offered to cover my classes so I'm taking one day off but no more excuses the next time. I have to be strong. 3 more weeks to go!
Waiting for the day I can eat without worrying if the same food will come out where it entered.
October 17th 2018
In the midst of all these sufferings, I have a lot to thank for. Colleagues who stepped in to replace my class, sister who cooks even though I don't always eat them all, sister who would text and check if I am ok and most of all, a husband would have that look of concern on his face each time I puke.
He is the dustbin now cause I can only manage a few mouthfuls of food he buys but he will do it again the next day. He told me he is most worried when I vomit cause I throw up everything I eat so what's left. In the first pregnancy, my food aversion was bad but I managed to eat. So he kept complaining about having to eat out and he thought I was just being difficult.
This time around, seeing how bad I'm puking, he just quietly does everything. Occasionally nag me but then all out of concern. I get so upset sometimes I would tell him not to nag so much cause he is the root of my problem now. 😂 If I'm not pregnant with his child, I won't be vomiting right? So he'll be like OKOK my mistake.
3 more weeks to go. I will survive this. what I dislike about morning sickness is that it's not a choice. I don't get to choose to get sick or not. I occasionally take Veloxin when I cannot take it anymore.
October 18th 2018
Eating biscuit all day every day...
Only way to keep me filled and not make me puke. Don't wanna know how's my sugar level though. At least I drink plain water only and not sugary drinks.
OMG I am so happy cause my sister cooked fried rice and I can eat!!!
October 19th 2018
Today body boikot the rice and pork so back to biscuit and cornflakes.
October 20th 2018
Another day when I feel so unwell and I don't have appetite for anything. Still gotta eat lest I vomit bile again.
Sick for 3 weeks plus but feels like 3 months. Indeed time passes by slowly when you don't enjoy it.
October 22nd 2018
Let me drama a bit.
I very long no eat until full d cause I don't like most food and really my stomach macam bottomless pit. Eat biscuit all cannot seem to fill it. So I almost 1 month liao not one day is full eh. Every day sleep time is very sad to go to bed cause I scared will vomit bile again. Haih, macam macam ada..
Hur hur hur recalled how I wish for no ms this time around. Mana tau lagi teruk. Last round not as bad cause I think baby stopped growing at week 6. So those are just mild ms. This time around so full fledge I just hope baby is growing strong and healthy in me. My goal for the next 9 months and the rest of my life is to make sure my baby is healthy happy.
Bochup can study or not, successful or not. Just healthy and happy. This mother here not ambitious one. I no need professor or doctor.
If I try not to vomit I'll feel worse so decided to let it out before I journey home. 1 hr to home sweet home.
October 24th 2018
Had stomachache then diarrhoea and now my upper abdominal is having period like cramp. Called my gynae and she said if it's not accompanied with bleeding it should be fine. scared.
So sleepy.
Is it my body knows tomorrow I on leave so today sleepy earlier?
October 25th 2018
Can't wait for food to taste good again. Now everything cooked smells horrible to me. Can we survive on fruits, biscuits etc? I'm worried of vomiting bile again but cooked food are ergh...
October 26th 2018
Right after lunch I feel extreme exhaustion. I'm extremely sleepy right now. This is new. Just started yesterday. Is it normal?
Week 9 pattern.
October 27th 2018
Seeing the gynae next week. Worried but told myself to leave it to God la. The first time I was preg I never thought I would lose the baby cause my sister and cousin just gave birth and both of them were okay what?!
This time around I'm more worried cause I have bad morning sickness which is a good sign but I am worried it would all be in vain. But there's nothing I can do but to trust my baby and God. The last time morning sickness was mild (like nausea but no vomit).
Taking a day at a time. Today I feel generally ok so I count my blessings.
October 29th 2018
I honestly dread mealtime the most.
Why must we eat? Why can't we just survive on air?
October 31st 2018
New pattern today - leg cramp. Woke up with muscles on both leg hardened. Still able to walk around etc. Please don't gimme cramp when I'm asleep.
I twist and turn every night and last night I accidentally dropped the ruyi oil while doing my acrobatic moves. My husband jolted up and held my hand immediately. Confirm worried his wife roll herself off the bed.
Sunday, October 21, 2018
Entered week 9
Things are better although some days I still feel like 1000 shit is thrown at me.
I still vomit from time to time (more so when I couldn’t digest the food or I couldn’t eat the food served.)
Still have strong food aversion. I can only tolerate some food (and it’s really not many so I get sick of the food I eat).
Meal time is still a chore.
I fell down once and got myself a big bruise.
I skipped 2 days work last week to recuperate but still don’t feel my best.
Baby, let’s work hard on this okay?
Grow strong and healthy. The only reason I can go through all these it’s because I’ll have you in the end so grow strong and healthy.
As of now, I’m still thinking this will be my only child.
🤣 Maybe after I deliver and have post natal amnesia then maybe another one.
But for now, let’s focus on one.
I still vomit from time to time (more so when I couldn’t digest the food or I couldn’t eat the food served.)
Still have strong food aversion. I can only tolerate some food (and it’s really not many so I get sick of the food I eat).
Meal time is still a chore.
I fell down once and got myself a big bruise.
I skipped 2 days work last week to recuperate but still don’t feel my best.
Baby, let’s work hard on this okay?
Grow strong and healthy. The only reason I can go through all these it’s because I’ll have you in the end so grow strong and healthy.
As of now, I’m still thinking this will be my only child.
🤣 Maybe after I deliver and have post natal amnesia then maybe another one.
But for now, let’s focus on one.
Sunday, October 14, 2018
Vomitting bile
Level up this morning cause I vomitted the yellowish bile yo!
Lots of them.
😭
Those are stomach juice and should stay in the stomach.
Baby ah....why like that baby?
Anyway, goal for this week is to pull through Tuesday. Once I pull through that, I’m safe. 😭
I’m so sick of being sick.
Lots of them.
😭
Those are stomach juice and should stay in the stomach.
Baby ah....why like that baby?
Anyway, goal for this week is to pull through Tuesday. Once I pull through that, I’m safe. 😭
I’m so sick of being sick.
Saturday, October 13, 2018
First trimester
is so challenging.
And it’s just the beginning.
How can people do it again and again?
Each day I pull through, I think about how my child will be an only child.
The previous one did not have me vomitting everything.
I just felt nauseous and hated food.
But I was okay.
This time around, vomitting is one of the routine.
Eat vomit, don’t eat vomit again.
See food, vomit. No food, vomit again.
I can stomach biscuits and nuts.
Some dried fruits are okay too.
But that’s about it.
No bread/bun, no cheese, rice (occasionally), noodle (depends), no vege at all, and maybe water. Not even milo.
It’s so tiring to be hungry yet unable to eat and then vomit cause of all these.
4 more weeks to go. It’s really challenging my mental strength.
Physically I think I can afford those weight loss but mentally it’s challenging.
All for you baby.
And it’s just the beginning.
How can people do it again and again?
Each day I pull through, I think about how my child will be an only child.
The previous one did not have me vomitting everything.
I just felt nauseous and hated food.
But I was okay.
This time around, vomitting is one of the routine.
Eat vomit, don’t eat vomit again.
See food, vomit. No food, vomit again.
I can stomach biscuits and nuts.
Some dried fruits are okay too.
But that’s about it.
No bread/bun, no cheese, rice (occasionally), noodle (depends), no vege at all, and maybe water. Not even milo.
It’s so tiring to be hungry yet unable to eat and then vomit cause of all these.
4 more weeks to go. It’s really challenging my mental strength.
Physically I think I can afford those weight loss but mentally it’s challenging.
All for you baby.
Friday, August 17, 2018
Disappointment
and anger because of unmet expectation.
I guess there’s always a lesson to learn in all circumstances.
This time, I learnt that it sucks to be ganged up against. Some people may never experience it in their lifetime - lucky them.
Also, people are selfish. And we have to live with that. If we can’t accept it, walk away. I would.
And today, I hate people in general.
I guess there’s always a lesson to learn in all circumstances.
This time, I learnt that it sucks to be ganged up against. Some people may never experience it in their lifetime - lucky them.
Also, people are selfish. And we have to live with that. If we can’t accept it, walk away. I would.
And today, I hate people in general.
Tuesday, June 12, 2018
Start again
My body has reset and we are just waiting to try again. It also doesn't help that suddenly everyone around me is pregnant. So every day I see postings of my friends and their bumps. I am happy for them but at the same time, I felt that it's unfair that mine didn't grow. If it had, it would be 16 weeks now. That's like almost half the journey already.
But still, if it's not meant to be, I shouldn't be pushing it. At least I found out before I saw the heartbeat or the hands and feet. I think it would have been harder to cope if my baby had grown bigger.
I really really pray that I don't have to go through this ever again. Googling is bad sometimes. It makes you think of so many things that may not even happen to you this lifetime. I was not as negative before this but now, I'll be extra careful. And since my body has reset, we'll go back to preparing myself for next. My plan for this year is to lose 6kg. =D While waiting for my baby, I'll lose some weight alright?
Till next time.
But still, if it's not meant to be, I shouldn't be pushing it. At least I found out before I saw the heartbeat or the hands and feet. I think it would have been harder to cope if my baby had grown bigger.
I really really pray that I don't have to go through this ever again. Googling is bad sometimes. It makes you think of so many things that may not even happen to you this lifetime. I was not as negative before this but now, I'll be extra careful. And since my body has reset, we'll go back to preparing myself for next. My plan for this year is to lose 6kg. =D While waiting for my baby, I'll lose some weight alright?
Till next time.
Saturday, May 26, 2018
I was about to post this
on instagram
The one who did not make it
We found out about you somewhere in mid-March. We were overjoyed because we’ve been waiting for you for 15 months. We waited until the weekend before we went to see the doctor. It was still too small, just a small sac but doctor said you were there.
On 13th April, we went for check-up again before we fly off to Taiwan. I have endured 2 weeks of morning sickness and food aversion. I never knew I could hate food. Despite all that, we were excited to see you. It was then when doctor told us that you were not growing. She told us to take you out so that we can travel without worries.
We didn’t. We refused to believe until the second doctor confirmed the same. We went to Taiwan with the empty sac in my womb.
We came back and decided to remove it. Today marks one month since we had to make that choice.
I never knew I could do this. Through this, I realised that I too can be strong. I was terrified, not knowing what to expect and also not knowing why this happen to me. But through this I learnt that I am actually much stronger than I think. We pray that the next one will be a strong one and perhaps one with lesser food aversion.
Because I did D&C, it happened so quickly and without pain that it sometimes feels like just a bad dream. I decided to post this so that we can grieve openly and move on from this. I want to remember that this happened and we came out of it together.
I didn’t cause I have students in there and I’m not ready for my colleagues or those in my company to find out about it.
Thank God for blogspot.
I’ll hide in here at the meantime.
Sunday, May 6, 2018
A week post D&C
I am blessed with mother and sister who cooked for me for a week. I stayed at their place for a week to recuperate. My mum did not allow me to carry heavy things or do anything at all. They'll still cook for me for another week cause they want me to eat more ginger for another week.
I love my mum and sister's cooking so I walloped a lot. Back to home after a week and will start work tomorrow. Feels like forever since I last worked. Semester is starting next week as well but it's not a very hectic semester so I'm okay.
My inlaws came to visit as well soon after my D&C just to make sure I'm okay. I feel so bad to put them through this disappointment but it's not within my control. So there's nothing I could've done better. May we bring more good news soon.
I love my mum and sister's cooking so I walloped a lot. Back to home after a week and will start work tomorrow. Feels like forever since I last worked. Semester is starting next week as well but it's not a very hectic semester so I'm okay.
My inlaws came to visit as well soon after my D&C just to make sure I'm okay. I feel so bad to put them through this disappointment but it's not within my control. So there's nothing I could've done better. May we bring more good news soon.
Tuesday, May 1, 2018
D&C Procedure
Since the miscarriage did not happen naturally, not even after a week of travelling in Taiwan, we decided to do it. More like I decided to do it.
It was scary for me because I've not had any procedures done at all in my life.
After living for 30 years,
I thank God for the skillful nurses cause all the needles felt like ant bites so far.
The procedure cost about RM2.2k in a whole and I did it in Island Hospital. I enquired Adventist but they said somewhere around RM3.5k so we went ahead with Island in the end.
The procedure was painless (cause I fell asleep like 1/2 seconds after the GA was administered. The ride there was scarier.
I did not experience much discomfort except for cramps after the procedure. It was only one day for me. I was able to go to toilet, laugh and talk immediately after coming out from the OT. I think the dosage wasn't high so I was able to recover quickly. I was shivering in there for say 30 seconds before they put in the GA and then I KO-ed.
All in all, I thank God for the smooth procedure and the ability to pay for it. I also thank God for my sister and mother for taking care of me and making sure I eat well for the past 5 days. My husband has to run around packing my stuff and just being there for me.
The procedure is over and now we are on the road of recovering and hopefully babychong #2 will come soon.
It was scary for me because I've not had any procedures done at all in my life.
After living for 30 years,
- I had my first blood test (and did it twice in the span of two weeks)
- worn the hospital robe
- sat on wheelchair
- was wheeled to the operation theater
- was given GA
- slept through the entire procedure and
- slept on the hospital bed, as a patient, not as a visitor.
I thank God for the skillful nurses cause all the needles felt like ant bites so far.
The procedure cost about RM2.2k in a whole and I did it in Island Hospital. I enquired Adventist but they said somewhere around RM3.5k so we went ahead with Island in the end.
The procedure was painless (cause I fell asleep like 1/2 seconds after the GA was administered. The ride there was scarier.
I did not experience much discomfort except for cramps after the procedure. It was only one day for me. I was able to go to toilet, laugh and talk immediately after coming out from the OT. I think the dosage wasn't high so I was able to recover quickly. I was shivering in there for say 30 seconds before they put in the GA and then I KO-ed.
All in all, I thank God for the smooth procedure and the ability to pay for it. I also thank God for my sister and mother for taking care of me and making sure I eat well for the past 5 days. My husband has to run around packing my stuff and just being there for me.
The procedure is over and now we are on the road of recovering and hopefully babychong #2 will come soon.
Friday, April 13, 2018
Baby Chong didn’t make it
Baby Chong didn’t make it.
We went to two doctors and both said our baby stopped growing.
In fact, our baby may have shrunk.
So we have 3 options:
Do a procedure to wash it out (D&C)
Take med and let the med encourage the process
Let it happen naturally.
But the last 2 may not clear completely and if we take med, we will have to wait 3months before we try again.
1st method is the best but scary and expensive.
:(
God, why do we have to go through so many obstacles?
We’ll not give up hope though.
We went to two doctors and both said our baby stopped growing.
In fact, our baby may have shrunk.
So we have 3 options:
Do a procedure to wash it out (D&C)
Take med and let the med encourage the process
Let it happen naturally.
But the last 2 may not clear completely and if we take med, we will have to wait 3months before we try again.
1st method is the best but scary and expensive.
:(
God, why do we have to go through so many obstacles?
We’ll not give up hope though.
Thursday, April 12, 2018
Learning new things every day
like I can gag because the water was too hot it burnt my throat. 😅
So it felt itchy and I gagged.
Gagging is no fun but it’ll be over soon right?
I also learnt that I can dislike food. Like I don’t have any feelings towards food now. I just eat to live. Never happened before!
I suppose we are in week 9. Or 8 at least. So another month to go. I have endured 2 weeks, I can do another 3-4 weeks I think. 😬
All for you baby Chong. So grow well.
So it felt itchy and I gagged.
Gagging is no fun but it’ll be over soon right?
I also learnt that I can dislike food. Like I don’t have any feelings towards food now. I just eat to live. Never happened before!
I suppose we are in week 9. Or 8 at least. So another month to go. I have endured 2 weeks, I can do another 3-4 weeks I think. 😬
All for you baby Chong. So grow well.
Friday, April 6, 2018
Food that pass the taste test
As of now, these are okay:
Pork porridge
Chicken rice
Toast and cheese
Yogurt
Fruits
Biscuits (Jacob crackers 😍)
Milo
Almond drink (thank God)
Clear soup
Rice with fried chicken (nothing with gravy)
Chee cheong fun
Leng yong pau
Egg tart
Butter cake
Peanut butter jelly toast
So for the past 1 week, I’ve been surviving on these. Didn’t help that I can eat a bit at a time so I kept eating whole day. I’ve learnt to tapau instead of eat at the cafeteria cause then I can space out the amount I eat instead of throwing away half a plate.
I can only tolerate carrot and sawi for now - in soup. So very little vege intake for me. Uncle must be puzzled cause I used to only tapau vege and no rice. Now only rice and one chicken drumstick 😅.
Let’s add more to the list shall we?
Pork porridge
Chicken rice
Toast and cheese
Yogurt
Fruits
Biscuits (Jacob crackers 😍)
Milo
Almond drink (thank God)
Clear soup
Rice with fried chicken (nothing with gravy)
Chee cheong fun
Leng yong pau
Egg tart
Butter cake
Peanut butter jelly toast
So for the past 1 week, I’ve been surviving on these. Didn’t help that I can eat a bit at a time so I kept eating whole day. I’ve learnt to tapau instead of eat at the cafeteria cause then I can space out the amount I eat instead of throwing away half a plate.
I can only tolerate carrot and sawi for now - in soup. So very little vege intake for me. Uncle must be puzzled cause I used to only tapau vege and no rice. Now only rice and one chicken drumstick 😅.
Let’s add more to the list shall we?
Tuesday, April 3, 2018
A few weeks late
We recently just got our BFP. We have yet to inform any of our friends. Just close family members and people who needs to know due to various reasons.
I’m now in my 6-7 weeks (it’s not determined yet - will know in my next appointment with doctor). Morning sickness has hit just less than a week ago and it’s more of evening sickness. I cannot stand the thought of a lot of food so eating has been a chore. I celebrate small successes.
I’m just counting down to days when I feel okay again. I’ll count every blessings. This whole pregnancy, the times when I’m okay, the fact that morning sickness only came recently and many others. I’ll eat for the sake of not feeling sicker for now. I’ve never had problems eating before this, so this is new to me. 🤣
Let’s count every small successes.
<3 mrschong
I’m now in my 6-7 weeks (it’s not determined yet - will know in my next appointment with doctor). Morning sickness has hit just less than a week ago and it’s more of evening sickness. I cannot stand the thought of a lot of food so eating has been a chore. I celebrate small successes.
I’m just counting down to days when I feel okay again. I’ll count every blessings. This whole pregnancy, the times when I’m okay, the fact that morning sickness only came recently and many others. I’ll eat for the sake of not feeling sicker for now. I’ve never had problems eating before this, so this is new to me. 🤣
Let’s count every small successes.
<3 mrschong
Monday, March 5, 2018
Post HSG
I have done HSG as scheduled on the 19th of February. It was not pain-free and the pain is bearable but it does come with a shock. I was slightly traumatised after. I don't think I would want to go through that again.
Anyway, results came back clear and my tubes are working fine.
It's not easy to say I trust you God when we've been waiting for 14 months. I believe this is the longest I have waited for something I want to happen. Perhaps God is building our faith, our patience (I don't have much of this). Perhaps we are put through all these for a greater purpose, a bigger picture that we have yet to see.
But truth be told, most of the time I feel like I no longer feel stress. And it's not a good thing. It's not that I feel free and am able to let go but I no longer see the need or desire to be stressed out, or to have expectations, or to be excited. After a while I just go through each month. Initially, I would feel excitement, disappointment and sadness but now it's just like every other month. And it's bad cause I no longer feel like it's gonna happen. That God is gonna bless us with a child.
So last week's sermon came to me strong. The preacher told us it's time to believe that God has good plans. It's easy to say yea, God has better plan for us but to truly believe it is another level altogether. Expectation is important. We need to have trust and faith to have expectation. If we no longer expect something, then it means that our heart has grown cold isn't it? Like if we no longer expect our spouse to remember the important dates, we will slowly grow distant from one another.
I thought if I don't expect and don't wait upon it, then it'll come true. Even if it doesn't, at least I was not expecting. But it made me more miserable cause I lost the mojo to even try. And I'm the type of person who would tell myself that I'll get hurt less if I don't have expectations.
After the service, my faith is renewed. I want to have that expectations again. When everything seems hopeless, the best we can do is to believe and trust that God has everything planned out. It's time to believe for much more than we deserve. Expect that it has already been done, that He has already given and we will receive.
So, looking forward.
<3 Mrs Chong
Anyway, results came back clear and my tubes are working fine.
It's not easy to say I trust you God when we've been waiting for 14 months. I believe this is the longest I have waited for something I want to happen. Perhaps God is building our faith, our patience (I don't have much of this). Perhaps we are put through all these for a greater purpose, a bigger picture that we have yet to see.
But truth be told, most of the time I feel like I no longer feel stress. And it's not a good thing. It's not that I feel free and am able to let go but I no longer see the need or desire to be stressed out, or to have expectations, or to be excited. After a while I just go through each month. Initially, I would feel excitement, disappointment and sadness but now it's just like every other month. And it's bad cause I no longer feel like it's gonna happen. That God is gonna bless us with a child.
So last week's sermon came to me strong. The preacher told us it's time to believe that God has good plans. It's easy to say yea, God has better plan for us but to truly believe it is another level altogether. Expectation is important. We need to have trust and faith to have expectation. If we no longer expect something, then it means that our heart has grown cold isn't it? Like if we no longer expect our spouse to remember the important dates, we will slowly grow distant from one another.
I thought if I don't expect and don't wait upon it, then it'll come true. Even if it doesn't, at least I was not expecting. But it made me more miserable cause I lost the mojo to even try. And I'm the type of person who would tell myself that I'll get hurt less if I don't have expectations.
After the service, my faith is renewed. I want to have that expectations again. When everything seems hopeless, the best we can do is to believe and trust that God has everything planned out. It's time to believe for much more than we deserve. Expect that it has already been done, that He has already given and we will receive.
So, looking forward.
<3 Mrs Chong
Friday, February 9, 2018
HSG it is
I was praying to conceive by this month to avoid going for this hysterosalpingogram (HSG) procedure. But we didn't so HSG it is. Called this morning to make an appointment and was told to go back to hospital on 19th Feb. 4th day of CNY.
Well, it has to be done. Many people conceive the month after this procedure so probably this is what we need. I sometimes ask myself why wait so long before going to do check up. But I guess the timing is better this time around cause I cannot imagine juggling renovation, moving, new house, getting used to the traffic and being pregnant on top of all that. So everything will be alright. =)
Now, eat all the pineapple tarts!!!! *husband refused to let me eat earlier*
Mrs Chong
Well, it has to be done. Many people conceive the month after this procedure so probably this is what we need. I sometimes ask myself why wait so long before going to do check up. But I guess the timing is better this time around cause I cannot imagine juggling renovation, moving, new house, getting used to the traffic and being pregnant on top of all that. So everything will be alright. =)
Now, eat all the pineapple tarts!!!! *husband refused to let me eat earlier*
Mrs Chong
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Trying to level up
We have been trying to level up to become parents for a year plus now. Finally decided to go and visit the gynae and do some check-ups. So far, everything seems good so it could be just missed timing or just not God's timing yet.
I hope we do not have to purchase another box of ovulation test kit until our 2nd child. For now, pee-and-dip is the new trend.
Sometimes it's not easy to see others popping babies everywhere but God has His timing and like what Ps Sam preached in service last week, stop looking at others and comparing and say why me? Why do they have it easier? Why do they have it faster? Why do we have to wait for so long and spend so much money? All these questions can break us down and draw us away from God.
I admit I've blamed God in my heart, quietly thinking, what's taking so long? When people ask, I feel so upset that at one point I felt that God is not there. Maybe it's not meant to be. Maybe I'm not destined to have a child of my own *damn drama I know*. But now I just want to trust God to provide when it's time. Cause He knows best and if He blesses others with children faster and earlier and easier than I, I learn to let go and not be envious. All I have to do is follow Him. Put my focus on Him and not on others.
Funny thing is, people have been asking us if we are planning to have children. And when we tell them our story, they said, "Don't plan too much; don't be stressed; let it happen naturally." Then why are you asking? But I know they meant well, so I just smile and said yeah, learning to let go and let God - something I'm not good at.
I have so much pent up in me but it's not easy to write them down for fear that someone will find it some day. But I guess once in a while, it's good to write down my feelings. So yep, that's us, 13 months into trying. =)
Mrs Chong.
I hope we do not have to purchase another box of ovulation test kit until our 2nd child. For now, pee-and-dip is the new trend.
Sometimes it's not easy to see others popping babies everywhere but God has His timing and like what Ps Sam preached in service last week, stop looking at others and comparing and say why me? Why do they have it easier? Why do they have it faster? Why do we have to wait for so long and spend so much money? All these questions can break us down and draw us away from God.
I admit I've blamed God in my heart, quietly thinking, what's taking so long? When people ask, I feel so upset that at one point I felt that God is not there. Maybe it's not meant to be. Maybe I'm not destined to have a child of my own *damn drama I know*. But now I just want to trust God to provide when it's time. Cause He knows best and if He blesses others with children faster and earlier and easier than I, I learn to let go and not be envious. All I have to do is follow Him. Put my focus on Him and not on others.
Funny thing is, people have been asking us if we are planning to have children. And when we tell them our story, they said, "Don't plan too much; don't be stressed; let it happen naturally." Then why are you asking? But I know they meant well, so I just smile and said yeah, learning to let go and let God - something I'm not good at.
I have so much pent up in me but it's not easy to write them down for fear that someone will find it some day. But I guess once in a while, it's good to write down my feelings. So yep, that's us, 13 months into trying. =)
Mrs Chong.
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