Not what it seems

My boyfriend just texted me to let me know that he is bringing me out for movies tonight. Yay right? For any other normal girl, it's always fun to hang out with the boyfriend, even if it means watching shows that you do not like.

However, the one question that he got back from me after I replied, "OK!" was "which seat did you buy? Are there many people?" Now you may think I am not a good girlfriend but I have my reasons.

You see, I suffer from anxiety disorders. I find it difficult to sit in a room where I cannot easily leave the room whenever I like. I can get anxiety attacks and it is important for me to be able to leave the room easily (don't ask me why I am a lecturer who has to lecture 100-200 students sometimes). Anyway, that is not something you can get in the cinema especially you are seated in the middle where there are people on your left and right.

The boyfriend loves movies and I have this problem even before I met him and has vastly improved from my condition. As a movie lover, he loves sitting in the middle cause that's the best view. With recent anxiety attacks I have in the cinema, lately, I am not comfortable sitting in the middle. Hence the question.

I have a feeling it is right in the middle (like it always is). =.=" And he is getting questioned by me and calmly answering all my questions. People always say that I look calm and collected but only the boyfriend knows how difficult it is. =P It's not easy but we take one day at a time.

About Me

I am typing this with Zhang Yun Jing's songs are playing on Spotify on the background on a gloomy day. It took me so long before I decided to sit down once and for all to write about myself in this blog.

I have been blogging for a long time. In fact my first blog was in 2006. Then after I graduated in 2010, I stopped writing as much because life has become less interesting I suppose. Or was it because I am much older now that what I am interested in has changed and I didn't find myself connected to the younger me.

Anyway, then I started this blog with the sole reason that I need to move on (again) into a platform where I can talk about my family, my future home and all the adult things that my other blog cannot capture. I couldn't write these there as I realised the name I used was not suitable. So people....it is important to sit down and really think of a blog name. Take it as naming your own child. You wouldn't want to name her something you will regret one day.

Also I see this blog as an extension to my life even after marriage and my own family. So it is even more important cause I do not want to caught having a blog name 'ahbu74' when I turn 50 (if you don't know yet, it was my first ever blog).

I am the girl in red, and the boy beside me is my boyfriend. I am 26 this year and I teach for a living. I enjoy meeting people although I am an introvert until I know you. I try my best to talk to people. I dislike speaking in a crowd (don't ask me why I am a lecturer). I enjoy cooking and trying out new recipes especially with my Thermomix. I also enjoy reading blogs, listening to music on Spotify, watching Runningman with my boyfriend and just laze around. I read a lot of home organising blogs which inspire me to one day share what I will do with my own house. I currently stay with my parents and hope to own my own house in 2017.

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