My body has reset and we are just waiting to try again. It also doesn't help that suddenly everyone around me is pregnant. So every day I see postings of my friends and their bumps. I am happy for them but at the same time, I felt that it's unfair that mine didn't grow. If it had, it would be 16 weeks now. That's like almost half the journey already.
But still, if it's not meant to be, I shouldn't be pushing it. At least I found out before I saw the heartbeat or the hands and feet. I think it would have been harder to cope if my baby had grown bigger.
I really really pray that I don't have to go through this ever again. Googling is bad sometimes. It makes you think of so many things that may not even happen to you this lifetime. I was not as negative before this but now, I'll be extra careful. And since my body has reset, we'll go back to preparing myself for next. My plan for this year is to lose 6kg. =D While waiting for my baby, I'll lose some weight alright?
Till next time.
