I'll miss him

being inside of me.


Before he started kicking me from the inside, I always thought some mummies are exaggerating when they say they will miss their baby being in their womb. Like, I want to eat my bak kut teh and my salad, so if he is out, I can do all that.

But now that he is kicking and wriggling inside of me, despite the occasional painful jabs, I think I will miss him being inside of me. Right now it feels like it's us against the world. Whatever I go through, I know he is with me at all times. When I'm alone, when I'm upset, when I do not have anyone to talk to, I can talk to him. He is inside of me and he is with me.

As my belly gets bigger, the discomfort gets more intensed. Sometimes during bed time he would move so much that I could not fall asleep (though once I'm out, I'm out *thank God*). I wish I can see him and watch him grow with all his possibly funny antics but at the same time, I enjoy him being inside of me.

I guess I have another 4-5 weeks to enjoy that before he officially enters the world. Time passes so fast but so slow at the same time. It felt like yesterday when we found out he was growing inside of me. Then I started feeling him move and then his dad gets to feel it too.

Working from home now due to the ongoing renovation in the office. Apparently the paint is extremely strong at work so I'll probably not step in to the office until after my ML. I'll still be working till my ML but will not enter the office (I'm not risking it). Will see what my boss says. =)

Thank you Lord for this gift of life that we will nourish and nurture for many years to come.

<3 Mummy Chong

One year...

It has been a year since we lost little dot.

We praise God each and every day for baby N that’s squirming inside of me daily. We thank God for blessing us with this rainbow baby one year after we lost our little dot. In just another 4-5 weeks, we will have baby N in our arms. Feels so surreal yet so thankful for this gift of life.

Mummy and daddy miss little dot. Thank you baby N for coming into our lives.

<3 Mummy

Week 33 day 3

According to the app, we have another 46 days to go.

Before April came along, I was having a hectic March. So I was like, I'll worry about the things after March. Then April came along and I was like, after my birthday. Now that everything is over, I'm a little anxious.

Yes we wanted this baby badly and the past 8 months were at times challenging but mostly rewarding. But I'm so afraid now that it's drawing near. I'm not sure if I am capable of pushing this little being out of me. And then what's next? I'm not too worried about the help I'll get cause Daniel is super hands-on and I have experienced sisters and mother. I'm more worried about those things that they cannot help me with - ie labour.

Anyway, it's week 33 now, another 6-7 weeks (which is the length of a short semester and I always find them passing by too fast). In another 6-7 weeks, I'll be upgraded to be a mother. I'm not sure how that'll be like but I'll get there when I get there.

As of now, I should start packing my hospital bag, perhaps buying the few stuff that I have remaining that I've not bought (nursing bra, belly bandit, my breast pump, bottle warmer etc). We will also start washing baby's clothes next week. I think week 35 is a good time to start washing.

Can't wait to see you baby, thank you for growing healthily and moving well inside of me daily to remind me that you are OK.

<3 Mummy Chong